Light in the darkest of times. Set out below is a poem I found; it is Copyrighted so I give full credit to the writer Edward Dillion. I have been sad lately at the way my life has proceeded. At the same time I have been extremely grateful for having Carla in my life. I felt kinship with many parts of the poem except for the rings part. The writing does not dovetail exactly with my own journey, but I certainly get the wrong path, and being imprisoned for mistakes made. Mostly I just felt it was a beautifully crafted piece full with sadness, earned wisdom, and perhaps a bit of hope. For the feelings it evoked from me in this time in my life I offer it to you.
These 13 Years
© Edward Dillion
Published: December 2015
“Wiping away the tears, as memories flood into view.
Through the haze I glance at parts of me you never knew.
Lost in the fog of doubt and constant regret,
For thirteen years hid the real us from when we first met.
Imprisoned in this place because of mistakes long since made,
Blindly leading us down this path to us both feeling betrayed.
Gathering up the pieces of our shattered expectations,
Finally clearly seeing what remains in my quest for reconciliation.
Now uncertain of what the future brings,
I take your hand, as you take mine – and we wear our rings…”
So today I allow myself to feel a bit sad and hopeful at the same time. Everyone has days when the darkness seems closer than the light. I’ve always liked that touch of melancholy in me that grounds me when times are good. Still, when I intuitively feel a weight on my heart and soul I trust there is a reason. I may not understand why I feel thus, but I trust it is for as a yet unrealized purpose. Today I close with a lighter heart than when I began the day. Peace.
